Integrity: Unable to Stand Up Under Your Arrogance

I have a prayer that I pray for myself on many days. It goes something like this: Pray that I have the integrity of Daniel, even if it causes me harm. The reference I use is Daniel 6:12, which reads:

The administrators and satraps, therefore, kept trying to find a charge against Daniel regarding the kingdom. But they could find no charge or corruption, for he was trustworthy, and no negligence or corruption was found in him.”

Daniel 6:12 (CSB)

I’ve added to that a verse from 1 Corinthians 6:7, which reminds me that winning arguments isn’t always the right thing to do.

As it is, to have legal disputes against one another is already a defeat for you. Why not rather be wronged? Why not rather be cheated?

1 Corinthians 6:7 (CSB)

Stay with me long enough and you’ll hear me say that all a man has is his word. You lose that and you lose it all. For most of my adult life (if not all of it), integrity has been a mantra. Not just, “do the right thing,” but, “be the right person.” I want to be counted on and I want people to know that what I say, I mean. I want my tax return to have no error in it (is that even possible?) and I never want to forget a payment. If people find wrong in me, I’d like for it to be because they are wrong.

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Excellence: Doing a Good Job (Even if You’re Alone)

I buy laser printers. I’ve had a few inkjets; I hate them. The laser printer interest began after starting seminary. I heard someone mention how much sharper the letters were if you used a laser printer. As one who would be printing out lots of paper over those four years at Dallas Seminary (before digital submissions), I wanted a laster printer that printed on thick, bright white paper.

So that’s what I did.

I’ve long-enjoyed doing that little bit of extra work that probably nobody sees or even cares about. I didn’t care if it mattered to someone else; it mattered to me. I get annoyed if something is a little off or if I know I cut a corner somewhere. (Remember: you’re currently reading the guy who has a neurotic approach to locking doors.)

Excellence is a trendy word in the church world. Some people use excellence to mean, “The way I like it.” As I use it, I mean it in this sense: that you do the best you are able. Sometimes your best is pretty bad. Still, you put in the work, stay up if you have to, research it as much as possible, and then finish. As a leader, I want the things that I do and am a part of to be excellent—the best they can be.

But I’ve had to live with the consequences of such a value, too.

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Generosity: Giving With (or Without) Discernment

My entire pastoral life—really, my entire life—exists because of the kindness of others and their generosity toward me and the family. There have been zero years of my life that I’ve made it on my own. Zero.

I took a brief inventory, and here is what I’ve found without even thinking:

  • Birth-18 (the home years): Mom and Dad and money from grandparents for Christmases and birthdays.
  • 18-21 (the LSU years): Mom and Dad and some scholarship money and some work money, but come on, I wasn’t really pulling down the benjamins.
  • 21-25 (the DTS years): Got married at 21. These years were covered by all of the above, the addition of in-laws, some wedding money (it went quickly), and some DTS scholarship money. I also wasn’t working FT at this point; Courtney was.
  • 25-34 (the Baton Rouge years): All of the above, but we also added three kids, “bought” a home (mainly took on debt), and I started FT work. That work? Pastoring. The pay? Other people’s gifts to the church. I also pursued more schooling, which was largely possible because other people helped make sure it could happen.
  • 34-Now (the Spring years): All of the above, but now we’ve added into it a new congregation supporting me, continued support from family, and who knows what else I’m not thinking about. Our vacations (often Pine Cove Family Camp) are even scholarshipped in some percentage.

My entire life has been impacted—directly or indirectly—by the generosity of others.

So when I say generosity is a personal value, you might think, “You don’t have much room to talk about this.” You’d be right. Or you may think, “It’s a value because he doesn’t want people to stop giving.” I’d see your point, but I hope that isn’t the case.

I love generosity because I’ve learned it from others, seen it in my Savior, and find that generosity is a better way to live than stinginess. Why do we give? Because Jesus did. Is it good to be a scrooge? No. I’ve watched the example people in my life—many of them my family or close friends from church—and have learned a model of generosity that I only hope to emulate, not that I have mastered.

But even as we have learned about generosity—and done all we can as a family to live generously—there is another side to it that affects me.

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Responsiveness: Such a Fast Turnaround that You Get Dizzy

The other day my friend texted me a question. I told him that I did have a response but I needed to hop onto the computer for it. From the computer I can type a response more quickly than I can on my phone—so most of the time you text me, I’m replying from the computer. In fact, my phone doesn’t often stay by me, so it isn’t uncommon for me to miss a call from someone I’m texting because they assume my phone is on me (it isn’t).

On days that I get up early (there haven’t been many this year) I’ve likely responded to my first email or text before 6am. I have a side hustle doing grading for Dallas Seminary. I tell students that I try to turn around any emails within 24 hours and, if easy to address, right away. My students have my phone number and know that if they have a question about the course, they can text me.

“Don’t call me,” I say.

“I don’t even answer the phone when my wife calls.”

(That’s actually not true, but the hyperbole helps drive home the point.)

I put a high value on responsiveness—both personally and when I see it in others. I don’t want to waste people’s time, so I don’t try to reach out to them for something I don’t need. Hearing, “Thanks for the quick reply,” brings me a lot of satisfaction. I know who, in general, is going to turn around a quick response and I appreciate it a thousand times over. (Also, if I don’t respond, there is almost always a reason why—even if that reason is just that I don’t want to respond.)

But, as you can likely see, this value is a two-edged sword. . .

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Responsibility: Getting Things Done (and Being Done in)

When I was in high school, I worked at an ice cream shop. I’d drive the family minivan to work after school (usually around 5pm), relieve the owner, and close the store down. For me, the pivotal moment in closing the store wasn’t counting the money, being sure the ice cream was covered, or making certain the store was clean. No, the pivotal moment for me was locking the door.

I can confidently say that I never left the door unlocked. How do I know? Most nights, after leaving, I’d wonder if the door was locked, then I’d turn around, drive back and check. One time I was already home in bed, and I couldn’t actually remember locking the door. I got out of bed and drove back to check.

The door was always locked.

While such a scenario might just come across as me being a bizarre high schooler, it’s all part of a value that has been developing in me over many years: responsibility. Someone else might call this “ownership” (I debated calling it ownership when I started writing the first post in this series.)

Responsibility is good, but it has its downfalls. In this post, you’ll get to see how this value plays out in my life—in ways good and ways not so good.

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Your Values: How They Help and Hinder Your Leadership

I sometimes find myself frustrated. It’s a mild frustration—nothing most people see—but it is present nonetheless. The frustration could be at home, amongst church ministry, in a meeting or a conversation among friends.

Being frustrated is easy; knowing why you are frustrated is hard. Often, rather than try and diagnose why we are frustrated we simply assume our frustration because of something someone else did wrong (good place to start, right?, with what other people did wrong). We know, though, that there’s usually more to the story.

2020 has been a year for me to try and track down my own personal frustrations that show up in leadership and figure out what is going on. Here’s what I’m discovering:

Frustrations often come when your personal values clash with the personal values of another.

Further than that is the fact that these values might be expressing themselves in you positively or negatively—and you might now know what is going on in the moment unless you really think about it.

So that’s where this series will be going. I’ve spent some time trying to articulate my own personal values, how they operate day-today, and how they might help or hinder as I lead. Today, I’ll simply summarize those values and from there I’ll start showing the upside and downside to each one.

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