Greg’s a guy I want everybody to know. However, knowing him is rare—he spends most of his time overseas with his family. Trained as a petroleum engineer, he’s spent his adult life largely in the Middle East raising his family, doing his day job, training leaders, and helping people start businesses throughout the world.

Why does a guy who works in oil and gas make me cry?

Bringing Order to Disorder

When I taught seminary students, I’d bring Greg in for a video session. When I led a coaching cohort last year, I brought him in to teach the same material. He taught late at night (his time) for the cohort. Then got up at 3am to fly to Tunisia to watch his kid play oboe (can’t make this up).

It’s common to hear people talk about work as a curse—something to be endured. Greg talks about it as a blessing—something original to how we were created. Work matters because it has always mattered.

But we lose that too often—drowned out by years of clocking in and clocking out.

He’ll ask why it’s so satisfying to cook a big meal for friends. The kitchen is a mess, the dishes will take a week to clean up, and the house will smell like spices for days—but we are content.

It’s the same with a garden. Why do we spend so much time tending to plants, fighting bugs, and insisting that a tomato bought at the store isn’t a real tomato?

Because there’s something inherently dignifying about creating good things for others.

Greg then talks about work as one of the ultimate ways to create good things for people.

As I debrief with class after his teaching, I’ll often hear, “I’ve always thought that was true but I’ve never had the words for it.”

Then, as I try to summarize, I get choked up. In part for the content and in part because I love my friend.

Vocation and Contribution

I recently shared about different areas of stewardship—areas everyone is responsible for, even if we neglect them.

Our “vocation and contribution” isn’t trivial. I define this area as your work and service—the way you use your gifts and talents to benefit others.

While earning income is important, knowing how we live out our vocation matters. It’s why I’ll say “and contribution” as a part of it.

Even if you don’t earn income, you can learn how you uniquely contribute and add value and meaning to those around you—named and unnamed.

For me, right now, the clarifying statement I have around this is:

I pastor, lead, and coach with thoughtfulness, care, and intentionality—investing deeply in individuals and teams to help them thrive, and trusting that faithful work expands its influence in ways I won’t always get to see.

The clarifying statement can change. It’s never gospel truth, but it reorients me when I lose focus—or when I feel like I’m in a rat race.

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What You Do Matters

One of the reasons Greg’s teaching resonates so deeply in my heart is because it is a constant battle: why does anything I do matter?

One of my favorite moments is watching someone recognize the value they actually bring to others—paid or unpaid. It doesn’t always come quickly—but when it connects, it connects significantly.

The payoff, at times, seems vague. I’ve also known those who have recognized that their job is the way to provide for their more significant contributions. There are people who do their jobs well, but they then go home to invest in the things and people they love. They’re using their job as a means to engage more fully in their vocation.

Where do you most feel like you’re actually contributing something that matters?

There’s a moment after the games where you huddle up with the team and do your little post-game speech. Parents hover at a distance to act like they can’t hear but they are listening. I remember another coach friend of mine, Dave, who would hold the pow-wow in the outfield, far away from the parents.

“Hey, Dave, why do you do it that way?”

“Parents don’t need to hear what I say. The kids will tell them anyways. Not a secret but a team conversation.”

Made sense. So when I managed my second season—now a pro—I would run with the team into the outfield for the post-game moment. It was fun to watch Bennett—one of the fastest kids on the team—use it as an opportunity to see how far he could slide. You play like you practice.

Little League Accountability

Quickly in the season, that moment became what we called “shout-outs and own-ups.”

Shout-outs: Talk about something good one of your teammates did this game.

Own-ups: Talk about a way you know you could’ve improved.

I wanted a time that wasn’t built on me having to fill the team moment with platitudes like “You guys have what it takes.”

What surprised me was how quickly it took. These kids were about ten at the time and they took to the opportunity to do both.

Shout-Outs (in kid terms, without significant specificity):

• Jake came in and pitched great.

• Brayden had a good hit.

• Mac was funny.

It was great to see how quickly the boys volunteered support to one another and highlighted the contributions of their teammates.

Own-Ups were my favorite, though.

• I let my attitude get the best of me.

• I missed an easy throw that I should’ve made.

• I didn’t hustle on that hit.

• I got in my head during my at-bats.

I was proud of the kids for how easily it came to them with a simple structure for how to engage, encourage, and take accountability.

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Structuring for Accountability

What was I going for? There’s a proverb that says, “Let another praise you and not your own mouth.” So I wanted to create a space where others could be encouraged and lifted up. I had a buddy at school who would say, “I do not think anyone can be overly-encouraged.” It might be uncomfortable to hear (especially if we aren’t used to it), but it isn’t rejected. Encouragement is like oxygen—and most of us are deprived.

I also want people to have enough humility to realize there is always room to grow. So the “own-up” produces a space where people are expected to name areas where they know they need to improve.

And here’s the truth: you don’t have to be ten or eleven to do it.

I’ve run this with 30- and 40-year-olds—same words, same structure, same result.

I think my favorite moment to watch—regardless of team—is how surprised people become with how their teammates view them. What I’ve seen on teams—in work, in marriages—is that they operate at an encouragement deficit.

So when the team starts to praise one another (even if they have real trust issues to deal with), it becomes an antidote for the cynicism that creeps in.

I sat in a room and watched someone begin to tear up as she realized the value the team saw in her. There’s a significant difference between “I think I do good work” and hearing people say, “You do good work.” You might believe you’re a good communicator. But hearing someone else say it? That lands differently.

Similarly, when a leader says, “I’m failing you guys by not giving enough attention to supporting you,” the team doesn’t get mad—they get helpful.

That’s the permission we’ve been waiting for—a place where praise remains constant and failures don’t bring retaliation.

Whether it is your workplace, your marriage and family, your friendships, or your 12u baseball team—we all need it.

What do you need contribute more of—shouting out or owning up?

I think my 5th grade PE teacher—Coach Smith—gave me that advice. If not her, then someone like her. Standard advice for anyone wanting to know their actual weight without a day of regret on the scale.

I’ve also heard the full spectrum: “Weigh every day to measure change” and “Don’t weigh at all—just go by whether your clothes fit more loosely.”

You can game that last one, though, by not washing your jeans—convincing yourself over the course of a week that you’ve lost 45 pounds.

For most of the past thirteen years, I’ve had more days than not standing on the scale.

You name it, I tried it. Logged my weight daily. Measured weekly. Used apps. Asked Courtney some version of “Am I losing weight?” or “Do I look okay?” on a rotating basis.

She’d reply with either, “You’re crazy and must have body dysmorphia,” or “Yeah, I mean, your love handles are real but I don’t care.”

“Wait—why don’t you care?!?!”

Needless to say, I had (and have) problems.

Bayou Trips to the Doc

I had historically not been a “get your physical” guy. I mean if you’re sick, sure. Go to the doctor. If you’re not sick, who needs a physical? Don’t drink, don’t smoke, sort of move around, eat Chick-fil-A and trust God.

Instead, I’d just write my weight every day (often by tenths of a pound to try and get some extra positive momentum) and make Courtney wonder why she married me.

But then you become middle-aged. You wonder how you’re doing. My Baton Rouge doctor—still a friend—told me he’d still be my doc but I’d have to see him in person once a year. Aside from that I could just text and go, “Hey what’s this thing on my chin?” and he’d answer if he had the confidence to. Other times, like many folks, you just let urgent care be your doc.

During these years (early 2020s to now), I’d drive up around the new year and see some friends, then go get my bloodwork done and drive home.

If you’re wondering why I spent 9-10 hours of driving to spend 28 minutes at the doctor’s office, you’re not alone. It’s about 1800 miles of driving over three years for 70 minutes of being at the doctor.

New Numbers, New Stressors

Then in 2025 they flagged something in my bloodwork. By clinical terms I was pre-diabetic. I guess the one before that is pre-pre-diabetic, AKA normal people.

That bugged me. A lot.

Literally nobody believed me, which had the comfort of absolutely nothing.

I’d share the actual screen grab of the result and it might get met with, “Well, that’s weird.”

And it was weird.

I spent the next five months (yes, five months) chasing some picture of health. I’d tweak diet. I started exercising more. I became highly cognizant of my decisions. I still had Jell-O (blame Courtney, who would essentially tell me I have love handles while handing me Jell-O).

Got my new blood work and the numbers went up.

Now I’m comfortably moving toward “definitely probably diabetic.”

It made no sense.

So I do what any normal human does: I start 16:8 intermittent fasting and check my blood sugar (with finger sticks) roughly 150 times over the next two months.

I drive back across the Mississippi for a mid-year doc visit. I text the doc my PDF of glucose numbers. He laughs at me in his understated doctor friend way.

The result: I’m back to my original panic number from January, moving the needle almost none over the past two months despite significant lifestyle changes and loving yet quiet mockery from my wife (you know, the actual diabetic).

Chasing the Wrong Goal

We’ve all chased numbers to try and close gaps we’re feeling—the scale, barbell, the 401k. Sometimes those numbers are the goal; sometimes they aren’t.

But all my efforts were changing almost nothing (except marital harmony).

It wasn’t until around December of last year that I had finally settled into some changes I felt could stick. I was working through areas of stewardship—a simple framework I’m using—where I had to write a broad statement for what “ideal” was for me in different areas of life.

Introduction to Areas of Stewardship

Under “health and fitness” I wrote this:

I keep an active lifestyle, making wise decisions every day and maintaining a weight that affords me the ability, Lord willing, to enjoy my life into old age.

The statement isn’t supposed to be a SMART goal. It’s an ideal. A picture of what I want. Then I work backwards from there. It re-orients the number as supporting evidence but it isn’t what I chase.

Funny how there was nothing about bloodwork on there.

The scale wasn’t the enemy. Neither was the bloodwork. I just kept asking the numbers to tell me something they were never designed to tell me.

What are you measuring that might be answering a question you’re not actually asking?

I was guarding this guy, I think it was Andrew. Andrew is probably 5-10 years younger than I am and very fast. I pride myself in old man defense—using your size and your brain to not kill yourself. So I get low and wide and put my left foot down.

Pop.

I’ve heard the phrase “I felt a pop” before but have never experienced it. It felt like they said—something in my knee popped. Immediate weakness.

Over the next week, it started to swell. I had a PT friend test it. ACL seemed intact.

“Probably a meniscus.”

“Do I fix it?”

“Nah. You’re not an athlete. If you can function with it and walk around, then you’re fine. Fix it when you can’t handle it anymore.”

Re-Injury Anxiety

There’s a real thing called kinesiophobia: an irrational fear of movement triggered by a former injury.

Sports medicine has a whole assessment framework for psychological readiness to return to sport—separate from physical clearance. It shows up especially around significant injuries like an ACL, where the last time you trusted your knee to handle the force of planting your foot, your ACL said, “No, thanks.”

Even with repair and rehab, some people can’t get past the thought that their knee won’t be able to withstand the force. It’s why athletes talk about physical rehab and mental rehab.

In my case, I never got the repair. I walk around with a pain of 1 or 2 out of 10 most days. Largely fine. But certain moves give me pause. I don’t like moving left and then changing direction. Much of my basketball is behind me. I can jog, but I go straight and rarely turn.

I operate differently.

Note: Even knowing this, I don’t follow my own advice. Here’s proof.

Repaired Teams, Same Behaviors

Every team is a system of relationships, and that system produces behaviors that become ingrained. We don’t even know we’ve learned a way of operating.

• John shows up bugged most mornings, so people stay away from him.

• Hans (different Hans, I promise) shows up overly critical, so people stop bringing ideas.

• David can’t keep a secret, so people stay surface level.

• The boss always does what he wants, so people know their input won’t matter and stop contributing.

Those behaviors become the team's muscle memory—like me showing up differently at the gym.

But what if the change is real?

• John’s anger softens and he starts to listen.

• Hans starts to encourage.

• David becomes trustworthy.

• The boss stops demanding outcomes.

Many times, we still don't believe it. We want to—but last time we tried, we got burned.

So we keep doing what we’ve always done: avoidance, no vulnerability, no real contribution. We behave as if the repair can’t hold.

When we believe nothing’s changed, nothing changes.

The Mental Game of Teamwork

The big change in teamwork is always the change in us. We’re John—or Hans, or David, or whoever. There’s some way we’re contributing to the strain, and we have to keep looking at that honestly.

Someone on staff recently mentioned that, at times, I have a look on my face when they come into my office of, “Why the heck are you in here?” The result? Guess who will come into the office less?

But just as the first change is in us, the second change is also in us.

Assume the team begins to change. John really is different. He’s changed and is changing. Hans does want you in the office. There’s a line from 1 Corinthians 13—probably read at a wedding near you—that love “believes all things.”

What does that mean?

It means extending trust to the person who has changed and believing the repair is real. Choosing that posture before the track record is long enough to be convincing—because it’s the better posture to have.

You have to believe the dynamics are different with very little evidence.

You have to plant your foot.

Say it Out Loud

Take a moment and consider your own relationships. There’s either someone you’re avoiding or someone who is avoiding you. There’s a disengagement somewhere—and someone misses their connection with you.

Whatever it is, name it. Don’t let it exist in the dark.

“I’m afraid of contributing ideas because I’ve been critiqued too often.”

Then bring a trusted person or two into the light with it. Tell them what it is, what you’re working on, and why. Naming it changes your relationship to it—and gives the people around you a chance to respond to the real thing, not the compensation pattern.

And then?

Do it again.

Also, if you’d like to hear Courtney and me talk about this incident, managing diabetes, and our failures of not getting continuous glucose monitoring earlier, we' have just the treat for you! Listen below to the extended version of the story.

I have a tendency of reaching over toward Courtney at night and asking, “Are you okay?” She’s a light sleeper and will usually answer me regardless of the hour. If she fails to answer, I know there is a problem. This particular night—in Old City Jerusalem—I reached over. Cold and damp. Not good.

The cause? Low blood sugar. If you’re awake, you catch it.

But Courtney was dead asleep. The sweating made her colder as she slept. She really was crashing—soaked through her clothes and relatively unresponsive.

I entered into a controlled panic.

“Courtney, can you hear me?”

If she could, she was playing coy.

“Courtney, I need you to wake up.”

Light murmurs. Some semblance of consciousness but alarming.

I had no means of helping her. Smart people have glucagon pens for these occasions. We did not. Our hotel didn’t have an elevator to our floor. It’s a small hotel in the Old City of Jerusalem. I had to bolt down a few flights of tile stairs, descending at tight, 90-degree angles.

I arrived in the lobby, a little intense-looking, and started asking people for something to drink. The bartender wasn’t there.

“Hello? I need some help. I need something sweet.”

Another tourist spotted me in the lobby.

“Calm down. It’s going to be okay.”

I knew she was just trying to help, but I also knew for a fact that things would not be okay without intervention.

I procured a beverage of some kind—warm, sweet, chocolaty. I headed back upstairs, assuming we were on the home stretch. I had done this enough to know a little sugar and about 15 minutes work wonders.

The only problem? Courtney is too incapacitated to swallow. What I was trying to get her to drink just fell right out, getting into her hair and onto her pillow. So gross, but we hadn’t gotten anywhere near bringing her sugars to a normal human level.

And there was so. much. shrieking.

During this entire ordeal Courtney wasn’t speaking; she was just shrieking. Loudly. The noise she landed on was one part banshee, one part getting stitches with no anesthetic. I was sitting there, wondering why nobody was waking up to help us out. What kind of team had we traveled with? It wasn’t like the walls were thick. Our door was perpendicular to another, and we did not even get a knock asking, “Is everything okay?” You’re quietly begging that someone can hear this noise, wake up, and lend a hand (doing what? No clue). The other part of you just wants your wife to shut up so that you don’t draw more attention.

Apparently, people did wake up, but they “thought it was a cat” and paid no mind. I’d married a diabetic cat.

To that point, Courtney hadn’t improved any. How do I bring my sweaty, incapacitated wife down several flights of stairs and get her into a taxi so that we can get to whatever hospital we need? What was the Hebrew 9-1-1?

I look for help one more time and someone whom I assume is hotel staff brings me to the kitchen.

I should’ve been laser-focused on Courtney, but the kitchen was hideous. Dishes piled everywhere. These were the dishes that were used for breakfast! I probably could’ve found my plate if I’d looked closely enough. Now I had two problems: (1) my wife was maybe on the brink of catastrophe, and (2) I wasn’t sure I could eat at the hotel anymore. By the end of the trip, I wasn’t eating breakfast anywhere we stayed, but that could also be because I didn’t really want sliced tomatoes for breakfast—or ever.

The procurement of honey packets realigned my priorities.

I got back to Courtney, honey in hand. I didn’t know what else to do, so I started dipping my finger in the honey and rubbing it on the inside of her cheek while she shrieked. Some of it mixed with spit and got in her hair as she lay there. Finger, honey, cheek, shriek, sticky hair. Rinse and repeat.

I learned later that substances like honey can get absorbed into the bloodstream under the tongue. Thus, even though the cheek isn’t the tongue, there was enough honey in her mouth that some got absorbed.

When Courtney recounts all of the chaos, she remembers staring up at a ceiling fan in our room that was spinning. That’s it, just spaced out, confusion, and a ceiling fan. Must be nice to not register all of the chaos and trauma going on. That part is for me, and now for you.

After some time had passed I assessed the situation. Next step? Check her blood sugar. So I found her glucometer, pricked her finger, and squeezed a drop of blood on it. I fully expected to see something in the 20s, which is the “better figure something out or your wife may die” zone.

However, her sugar was comfortably over 100—which is the “live your life and enjoy it” zone. A reading in that range and she should be fully functioning.

Great. Now what?

The shrieking had slowed but Courtney, while conscious, was still not really responsive. I had no bullets left. The script I have is “give her 15 or so grams of carbs and 15 minutes and she’ll get back to normal.” I didn’t have a “and if she doesn’t, then do this” move. In a little over two years of marriage, we had played that game enough times and every single time I had been able to work it out.

Unable to work it out, I began settling into another thought.

During all of the shrieking, the flights of stairs, and the stress, I thought, “I guess this is the rest of my marriage.”

I genuinely believed that something inside Courtney had died (physically, this time, not emotionally) and I needed to settle in for a marriage where the rest of my life would be taking care of my immobile and generally unresponsive wife.

This thought process wasn’t resignation or fear; it was ownership of my new phase of marriage.

But there we were, on the top story of a small hotel in Jerusalem in the middle of the night in the midst of a medical emergency, and I was doing everything I could for her.

When all my interventions proved woefully inadequate, it was there that I thought, “Here we are.”

And it was truly us.

Courtney interrupted my thought process by barely mumbling, “Ccccooolld.”

She’s cold? Well that would make sense. She had sweated through her pajamas. I’d be cold, too, but I’d still be able to move. Her blood sugar had been so low for so long that she was also dealing with hypothermia as her body fought for survival.

I was fresh out of campfires and electric blankets there in Jerusalem, but I did have a bathtub that, by God’s grace, had a detachable shower head. I picked her up and put her in the tub. I’m glad I didn’t need to carry her down three flights of stairs. The fifteen feet from the bed to the bathtub seemed Herculean enough. Shoutout to all the nurses who move people every day.

I began to spray her down with warm water while I left the stopper in the tub to fill it up. This felt like how you would spray a pet, not a wife.

Within moments, she snapped back. Because she was back in the land of the living, she quickly realized her hair was a sticky, gross mess and decided to shower. I went into the room and emotionally surveyed the impact of those last moments. She emerged conscious and clean. Soon after, she shared how much her mouth hurt now. Apparently, she had tried to eat the honey on her cheeks by gnawing on them, causing sore cheeks for the rest of the trip.

All worth it, though. Courtney was back. We were back.

Her pillow was gross.

Other Memoir-realted Posts:

I’ll start with one of the more obvious dumb tasks: air conditioner repair.

Our office has roughly 15 air conditioners. When your facility has been frankensteined together over 30-40 years, you make do. They’re almost all residential units. Deferred maintenance has meant that in the past 26 months we have replaced (I think) six of them. We have done repairs and diagnostics on another three or four. One currently doesn’t work. Another one has a wire mesh screwed over the top of the condenser unit.

One of our AC vendors keeps vampire hours. He’ll work on a unit until late into the night if the customer is up for it. He was built for odd hours and has the stories to show it.

So he has to replace one of our bigger units and he chose vampire time to take care of it. No problem, I thought. I’ll volunteer as tribute.

It’s the right thing to do.

Assuming the Role of the Joyful Martyr

If you’re like me, you might be a joyful martyr—that person who gladly suffers just a little more because you assume nobody else will join you or help you.

On the surface you’re the team-player. You’re the “take the lowest place” kind of person. You live to serve, right? Nothing wrong with that.

Not so fast.

The joyful martyr assumes nobody else is interested. He or she takes the place, in part, because of an inflated view of self-importance. (I speak about myself here.)

I mean, can you not even ask?

So there I am, sitting up at the building. It’s 10pm, 11pm, 12am. It’s so dumb. I’m exhausted. Why am I not just leaving the guys here? If we can’t hire a trustworthy contractor we have more than AC problems.

But there I sit. Forever. I go sit in my office, do work, and then climb the stairs and check in on the guys working.

“Done yet?”

“Not yet. Need to do a few more things.”

Sitting. Waiting. Walking. Working.

Now I’m annoyed. “Joyful” left a long time ago.

Keeping Help at Bay

The joyful martyr in me enjoys being the last to leave and the one who appears the most willing to help.

But all of this got slowed (I won’t yet say “halted”) a year or so ago. I was in an eval with some other leaders on the team and my propensity for stepping in and taking on tasks I assumed no one else wanted came up.

“We’re on the same team. You have to stop taking these on yourself.”

Okay, so maybe the joyful side isn’t as obvious as I thought it was.

What mindset did I actually have? One that assumed only I was the one who needed to do the most annoying tasks. Such a perspective limits in at least two, inter-connected ways: (1) it removes the chance that someone else might actually want to do the task and enjoy it, and (2) it prevents me from leaning on those around me.

But assume that nobody wants the task (which with vampire ACs is usually the case) and it is no one’s direct job to keep vampire AC hours (besides the AC vendor himself). What then?

This is where that second reason becomes so important.

It doesn’t have to be your job to step in—it can happen simply because you’re on the team. You share the tasks and distribute the load.

Just Ask

It might sound simple but the allure of being the joyful martyr—and that little bit of self-inflicted suffering we get from it—keeps us from leaning on others.

Every team has vampire tasks (even if it isn’t necessarily keeping late hours). Sometimes those tasks have a clear owner; other times they don’t.

Rather than assume you need to do it because you’re the bigger servant, share the load. Let others step in. Let them help. Without it, you’re assuming the team you’re on can’t handle the load and you have to take it on yourself.

That’s not a team I’d want to be on (even if I am complicit in creating it).

And what do you gain when you ask? You gain a team with a new capacity to serve one another.

Where are you under-estimating those around you?

(Also, for the record, I just leave our AC guy at the building now.)

I mainly have stories. That time at Thanksgiving she printed out and recited text messages. That time in high school she made me a cheeseburger after I came home from work. Her laugh had this unforgettable way it ramped up into an unstoppable force of staccatoed glee.

Most of you didn’t know her, so here we are, over 21 years ago:

My mom was great and I have plenty of stories about her. She also drove me crazy in ways that only moms can.

But one thing she was really good at—something Courtney and I still regularly talk about—was being a mom to an adult, married son. The story I remember the most, and retell the most, is how she set her expectations for my marriage.

Mom’s Marriage Comment

I am not a fan of how people talk about marriage sometimes.

“I’m not losing a son/daughter. I’m gaining a daughter/son.”

I don’t think that’s true. Marriage fundamentally changes the way that you relate to your family of origin. You lose your unmarried son and you gain a married son, but in doing that, you also lose a whole lot. Marriage establishes a new, more important, union.

My mom understood this and wanted me to know, very early on, how she was going to operate as Courtney and I began our life together. One day, she pulled me aside and shared with me something that was important for her to share. (This is my paraphrase.)

Hans, you can see your father and me as much as you want, but you never have to see us. You’re always welcome but never expected.

Mom nor Dad ever expected us to be with them for a holiday. They had no traditions that were so important that we had to show up. There was never even a time (that I can recall) where Mom said, “I’d like you to be there,” or, “I haven’t seen you in a while; it might be nice if . . . .” She fully trusted me to be a husband first and then, somewhere down the line, her son. And it was true—she was always glad to see me but she never expected me.

My mom made being her son very easy up until her last day.

Over two decades later, two main thoughts stay loud in my mind.

Embrace the New Stage

Why do I keep going back to that perspective? Why do Courtney and I replay it? Why does Courtney say when friends might be frustrated with their in-laws, “My in-laws have been great”? (I’ll add into this my siblings since the also read this—you’re great, too, Shana and Dale.)

Because Mom and Dad knew how to embrace the new stage they had—as articulated by Mom’s advice/charge/comments/grace.

The pivot from kids in the home to kids out of the home is fierce—we’re not far from that in our own home. The pivot from unmarried kids to married kids hits hard, too. Your child truly and wholly becomes a new unit.

So many of us fight against these relational changes because we are fighting for something that doesn’t exist anymore. We want a time capsule from another era when, really, we need to die to what used to be and embrace what is.

It is one thing to pay lip service to the idea. It is another to live it out. My mom lived it out.

Say It Out Loud

The other aspect of Mom’s advice that was so powerful was that she put herself on record with it. She said it directly to me and couldn’t back away from it.

Her words mattered, and they stuck. I never needed to call her back to those words.

Can you imagine first how freeing it is to hear such a statement? Second, how endearing it made me toward my mom? Would I, with all of that love and trust, want to go, “Thanks, lady, see ya!”

Never.

It is one thing to believe something, and another to articulate it. Something powerful happens when your perspective leaves your mind and heart and actually comes out of your mouth. Now you’re official—now others have heard it. You can’t go backwards. Mom kept herself from going backwards, which allowed us both to go forward.

I miss my mom, but I’m glad for what she taught me. I’m sad for my boys because they’re at the age where they could’ve really cherished her disquieting zaniness and mid-tier opportunities she took to be slightly embarrassing. We can’t drive home from seeing her and laugh together about how goofy or loving she was. They (we) don’t get that, and soon most memories will fade into what we can recall from photographs.

But one thing that the boys will be able to experience, should marriage be in their future, is the same advice: be who you need to be. And I’m always here for you.

They’re there when you get together with a group of friends at night—that person who wants to explain their (accurate) opinion on everything that is wrong with the world. You just want to enjoy your dinner.

You might live by them—that individual who has details on every person in the neighborhood.

In a staff meeting years ago, one of our staffers taught me a phrase she has used for such relationships: sandpaper people.

What is a sandpaper person? They’re someone who is rough to us. They make us uneasy for any myriad reasons. It could be they’re too opinionated, needy, confusing, insecure, overly confident, too outgoing, too introverted.

I can’t tell you who your sandpaper person is and you can’t tell me who mine is. Depends on the day, the hour, my mood.

We’re all fickle about who these people are.

You Are Someone Else’s Sandpaper

Before it becomes too much about “them,” you need to know that you are someone else’s sandpaper person. Someone (or many someones) in your life has to adjust who they feel like they are when you show up in their world.

For a while—I kid you not—I had a staff member or two tell me that they got nervous walking by my office. Because of where my desk is located, if my door is open, I see anyone who comes in (unless one guy tries really hard not to be seen). I don’t want that, do I?

Could it be that I’m the difficult one? I wonder if maybe the idea I originally had for sandpaper people was wrong.

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Sandpaper People: Who is the Problem?

Different grit sandpapers serve different needs—but all of it smooths. We might think that these rougher people are the problem, but that isn’t the case. Then, after one type, the other type doesn’t hurt nearly as much.

If we sit in the center of our universe, then sandpaper people are those who are merely hindrances to us getting what we want. If that is the case there’s really only one thing to do: avoid them at all costs.

But such an approach removes the very thing that might be good for us. If we avoid those more difficult relationships, we lose out on our own growth.

That’s when I realized the person at work who taught me this very phrase taught it to me to teach me a lesson: that these people aren’t the problem, but that I have the rough edges that need smoothing.

I didn’t like hearing that idea because it is far easier to address others—to address “them”—as the issue. If that’s the case, I am fine and everyone else is the problem.

If you flip the script, I am the problem—we are the problem—that needs changing.

Behind the scenes of Sandpaper People

Sandpaper People: How Can I Grow?

This concept stuck with me because of how me-centered my universe can be.

I started a task this year in order to start learning the ways that I can be the problem in relationships. Twice a month I ask someone in my life this question: How can I improve? I let them answer the question however they want. Different people know me in different ways and the feedback will be varied based upon the contours of that relationship.

I tend to ask this to anyone I’m around at the time. I’ve started mainly with people who know me well—it is safer. But recently I asked someone in my extended network just to see how it might go.

I was at lunch with a few other leaders in the area. I asked the question to the whole table but directed it at my friend Michael—I wanted his answer (honestly, because I felt he’d be the most likely to give it).

“Oh no. I’ve learned not to answer those types of questions after a lunch.”

“Come on! Anyone?”

Michael chimes in, “Okay, I have one.”

“Great.”

“This doesn’t bother me; I like vinegar on my fries.”

I had no idea where this was headed.

“Okay?”

“You are very intense. For a guy like me, that’s fine. I’ll match that. But others won’t be able to handle it. You need to be aware of what other people are needing in a conversation so that you don’t miss an opportunity to serve them in a way that helps them.”

“Man. That’s perceptive.”

I’ve only spent a few hours of my life with this guy and yet, anyone who has known me for years would tell you the same thing.

How kind of a friend of mine to take a moment to point out an area where I cause others discomfort. I took a note in my “How Can I Improve? Convos” file.

And it was a huge help.

Rather than look at your relationships thinking of how people are difficult for you, I’d invite you to join me in learning how you might be difficult for others.

How are you someone else’s sandpaper person?

Fall of 2020 our boys started a new school. We flipped from public to private school. This was a big deal because I’d been ride or die public school for years.

Schooling choices amongst people in my world are akin to gangs you join. And once you get jumped in, changing allegiance can be tough.

On the one side, you have the homeschoolers. These committed moms and dads use these years of young influence to provide as much hands-on education as they can to their kids. They’re good people, but you can usually pick them out of a crowd. They drive vans or big bus-like vehicles and their kids, while polite, also might be feral because they rarely wear shoes and if you ask them where their parents are, they will probably say “No” and then hit you in the leg and run off. Then they’ll build a campfire for you and cook you dinner after their mom, who was nursing a newborn somewhere, makes them apologize to you not just with words but with actions.

On another side, you have private schoolers. These folks are bougie and spend their well-earned money on providing education for their kids the normies can’t afford. If you tell people your kids are in private school, you’ll get some side-eye and then people will wonder who you murdered to get all of that money to send your kids to school. The private school parents are the most likely to be helicopter parents with strong entitlement vibes because they’re paying customers. They don’t want the school to just educate their kids but also provide their social calendar. If their kids misbehave, it must be the school’s fault.

Then you have the public schoolers. This is the traditional route. Mom and dad might both be working but they’re committed to their neighborhood and their kids’ education. They have a firm conviction that public education is the right way to appropriately train their kids for how to engage with different worldviews. They send their little missionary kids to school every day to make a positive impact. Their kids are probably cussing under their breath a little, too.

Side note: Whatever path you choose brings with it blessings and curses. There’s no perfect model and you’ll always be dealing with (and compensating for) your schooling decisions.

When Expectations Don’t Match Reality

Making the switch for us took some time, some prayer, some processing, some support, and a longer-than-expected interview process. At least it was during COVID so numerous aspects of the application process were cut short.

Driving up, the campus looked nice—small cottages with play areas for each age group (the equivalent of elementary, middle, and high school, though you can’t use those words in classical education). We walk in and are greeted by two members of the admissions team and then ushered into a small library.

There, sitting at the table, the litany of questions begins. I don’t remember all of the questions. I just remember the feeling.

Anger. Embarrassment. Confusion as to whose kids these were.

The admissions interviewers for the meeting didn’t seem to be bothered.

I was bothered.

The story behind the story:

With every one-word or half-answer or “I don’t know,” I found myself wanting to snap. Come on, boys, this isn’t hard. Just do what you’re supposed to do. Be kind; don’t be a jerk. And, for goodness’ sake, stop crying about uniforms and homework.

Forty-five excruciating minutes later, the meeting was over. I want to yell at my kids, but my commitment to conflict resolution means I can’t let the school see me yell at them. I have to wait until we get in the car and yell at them like a normal dad.

Then it starts. My words might be off here, but my feelings are not.

“Boys, you were very rude in that meeting.”

“What?!?”

“You were rude. You were disrespectful. Why couldn’t you answer the questions? That was unacceptable.”

The tears begin to flow. I don’t care. I just keep driving.

“That is not the way you talk to adults; that’s not the way you interview.”

Tears continue. I wonder if they will actually accept us. “Pastor’s family denied admission to local Christian school.”

Just Tell Us!

The drive home has one light that always takes a little longer because traffic backs up. My oldest, ever the honest one, through tears, says, “You just needed to tell us!”

That one cut deep.

In what world should a dad assume his kids magically know how to handle situations they’ve never been in? That’s apparently what citizens do in the world I’ve created in my mind.

Welcome to Hans’ head. Population: zero, because nobody can survive.

My pride wants me to double down. “Kids should know better,” I’d like to think. But why should they know better? That’s why they have parents. I’m their dad.

The perception of a ten-year-old to give such a tearful rebuke still sits with me. I’m at a light about to turn and I realize just how askew my own heart is. School acceptance or not, I can’t be this kind of person.

We get home and I process the words. I know that simple things like helping my young kids understand expectations goes far better for them. I know they need my encouragement more than my evisceration about not measuring up. I’m their guide in this world, not their drill sergeant.

They need their dad.

Speaking of, here’s a great song about dads being dads.

Don’t Assume, Friends

Too many of us expect people to simply know how to act in any situation. That was my problem—my failure. At times, it still is.

But that’s isn’t how it works, is it?

Parents, in particular, are gentle guides to help their kids navigate what is ever a circuitous road. They don’t need your anger; they need you.

Where do you need to set someone up for success rather than tell them where they didn’t measure up?

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You tell your co-worker, or your spouse, or your friend, or your mail lady that you will get something for them tomorrow.

“Sure thing, Pam. I’ll gladly get you that document in the afternoon.”

“Great. Thank you!”

At that moment, all parties have a level of confidence that said document will be in Pam's hands tomorrow afternoon. Jim, who we’ll say is the promiser here, has a lot riding on his success.

The next day comes and goes and that promise is broken.

The standard response?

“No big deal!”

This phrase, or one of its counterparts, exists in relational lore.

• Totes fine.

• Not a problem.

• It’ll get it done.

• You’re good.

• Don’t worry about it.

Why do we paper over offenses?

Your response need not be catastrophic (“HOW DARE YOU!”) but if we want to be men and women of integrity, and I assume you do, then keeping even small commitments matters. People watch. People remember.

If you’re married, I hope you keep your wedding vows. That’s a big vow. But if you told someone you’d buy them a book and you forgot, that’s still a type of vow—a promise, a commitment, an agreement that you will deliver.

It does us good to keep our word.

Yet our misplaced desire to appear gracious actually prevents us from extending grace. In our attempt to make it better and fill the gap that has been created, we short-circuit an important part of our relational needs: making amends.

Admit, Ask, Make Amends

To the one who caused the offense: run to the problem. Don’t run from it.

This isn’t just spiritual jargon. This isn’t if you told your pastor you’d be in church Sunday and then you weren’t. This is for the time you forgot about a lunch date.

It doesn’t matter what the offense is: don’t be the judge of how much you did or did not offend someone. Simply make it a practice to do three things:

• Admit that you didn’t deliver (“I failed you.”): Own the offense you caused. Don’t wait to get found out.

• Ask for Forgiveness (“Will you forgive me?”): You’re at a deficit that you created. Ask the one you offended to forgive it—fill it back up.

• Make Amends (“How do I make it right?”): Don’t miss this one. Don’t let someone rush to forgive you while you still have a promise you can make good on.

And if you hear “It’s no big deal” about to emerge from the other person, stop it and say, “No, it is a big deal. I gave you my word and I didn’t follow through. Even though you’re okay, it wasn’t okay that I did what I did.”

Feel, Forgive, Move Forward

To the one offended: hear them out and speak honestly.

Do not short-circuit the process by cutting someone off at the conversational pass. Let them say what they need to say. Then, you have your moves:

• Feel the offense (“That hurt.”): If we’re honest, we don’t like when even small offenses occur. We get pretty good and calloused toward them, but we still don’t like them. Explain the hurt the offense caused.

• Forgive the person (“I forgive you.”): You have to mean it. To forgive it means you’ll absorb all the consequences of the offense and never bring it back up to that person again. Unforgiveness carries shrapnel and the collateral damage can last a long time.

• Move Forward (“Here’s what we can do.”): Explain what moving forward looks like. If the commitment can still be made, albeit a little later, let them finish it. If it can’t be and it’s done, then figure out how to make the miss less likely next time.

When both offender and offended do their part, the relationship actually gets stronger.

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Take an Inventory, Make it Right

If you’re like me, you probably have a couple of outstanding commitments you never closed out. There’s a guy I’ve never met face-to-face but I committed (either internally or directly to him) to give $100 for some advice he gave me back in 2019.

It took me six years to pay him.

Are you doing the math? That’s right. 2025. By that time we usually have moved on and put down deep roots into “It’s no big deal” land.

But it was a big deal.

Even though we'd never met or even spoken on the phone—just emails and texts—that nagging feeling stayed with me. I knew I'd made a commitment and tried to move past it, but that reminder kept coming back.

“He won’t care. That was so long ago. He doesn’t even need the money.”

I reached out to the number I had for him to ask if it was still him. While I didn’t go through all the steps (I hadn’t written this post yet), I did tell him I owed it to him, never paid it, and wanted to pay him.

He did not “no big deal” me. He said he wouldn’t turn it down. I found a way to get him the money (thanks, Zelle), added some interest, and got his reply.

“Definitely not necessary, but what a story that this makes about answering spam messages.”

From spam to one less broken commitment. I’m sure there are more I need to make in my inventory. I wonder what will come to mind next.

What about you? Where can you make it right?

And me? I stepped into the world of coaching recreational youth baseball.

I had never played baseball. I sat down with friends to learn how to run a practice.

“Do you know what a double cut is?”

“A double what?”

“Double cut.”

“No. Sounds important. How do I teach this to eight- and nine-year-olds?”

(Note: was not important nor could they do it.)

I pieced together lineups, practice plans, and game plans. I bought books on coaching and more than one gimmick. In future years, I made a document (complete with GIFs) on batting stance, launch position, coiling, and throwing mechanics.

I rotated pitchers. I had kids play positions of which they had no knowledge. I got mad at parents and they got mad at me. I lost sleep wondering what I did wrong when we lost a game. I made great friends.

In sum: I loved it.

The Youth Sports Death Grip

Recreational ball is my speed. The competition? Pretty bad. The fun? High. I miss the ballparks. I miss coaching with my friends—Matt, Lupe, Adam, Dave, Bret, and Scott, to name a few. Good men, good leaders, and engaged parents. There are worse things to be.

But I also got caught up in the never-ending cycle of “more” that goes along with many youth sports. Baseball got way too much of my attention. After a year or two of rec ball, you gotta make a change. If you want your son to have a chance to be the starting shortstop for the Astros, you have to play on one of the ten billion select teams around led by someone who might’ve played low-A ball.

So you do. You buy a new bat every year. You steal from college savings to pay the insane gate fees. You mortgage away half of your weekends to sit at ballfields while your youngest son beats his head against the bleachers out of boredom. You do it for your kid—he's your retirement.

You also do it for the relationships you’ve formed and the people you’ve gotten to know over years.

You also sort of do it for yourself—well, I did.

And we were pretty tame with it. Baseball was mildly disruptive to our larger commitments. We’d leave practice early to head to student ministry events. We only played locally. Never did one of the 700 world series events you could do. If a game was on a Sunday, we’d head out early, probably lose the 8am game, and then drive to church. If we won the game, we’d still go to church, then head back out afterward and go lose that game.

But it was a lot. Anyone in competitive anything will tell you it’s a lot. They just get mad when you say that maybe it’s too much. I’d get mad at you, too.

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Teenage Wisdom

Thus, the prayers for our family started early. While we loved it—while I loved it—I can’t always promise I loved it for the right reasons. So I’d pray that we wouldn’t make an idol out of baseball. I’d pray for wisdom. I’d talk to friends. I coached in some iteration four seasons. We tried to make it a family affair.

One of our boys played an additional three seasons with different groupings of friends from those rec days.

Then, it ended.

I committed, as much as possible, to be the baseball dad. It was a part of how I bonded. One week, Courtney texted that our son might want to be done playing.

This news came as a surprise to me.

However, on a drive home from practice one night, I heard it from him.

“Mom says you want to be done.”

“Yeah. I don’t like that baseball takes so much time away from the family. From important stuff. I don’t want to spend all my time there.”

“Yeah but are you sure? Maybe you should talk to people who know this world more. Talk to Andrew [student minister]. Talk to Nolan [great guy at our church who played college baseball].”

What am I doing? On one hand I’m enormously proud of him and want him to process with other people who love him. On the other hand I’m sort of hoping he backs out or can be convinced otherwise because wHaT aBoUt Me?!?

“I mean. Have you prayed about this?”

“Yes. One of the reasons I think this is the right thing to do is because it wasn’t on my mind at all when the season started.”

“Then let’s enjoy the rest of the season and ride off into the sunset.”

I’m grateful for the men who invested in our family through baseball. I still keep up with many of them. Last week I grabbed coffee with one to talk life, parenting, and faith. I work with another one now—he helped hire me here in Texas. I swap family pics and videos with a third. And I still text a friend and dad who was one of our son’s biggest fans—the one who helped us make sure he got to all those games.

It was sad to untether that.

I had to grieve (and realize how quietly fanatic I had become).

The Best Decision is the One I Didn’t Make

Honestly, our boy’s better wisdom to take a big step and quit baseball was one of the best decisions our family has ever made. And I didn’t even make it.

I credit him, a thirteen-year-old at the time, with changing the trajectory of our family for the better.

I tell him regularly, “You quitting baseball was one of the best things that happened to us.”

“Really? Cool.”

Courtney and I want to teach our kids to pray, use wisdom, and trust God to give them direction. But we didn’t really think it would work. You need to be at least voting age before you make those decisions, right?

However, I can say without a doubt that our family is in a much healthier spot because our son made a decision I wasn’t ready to make.

Thanks, son.

What does he do with his free time? Well, some of it includes making content for a YouTube channel he has with his friends.

This is better, right? Please tell me this is better. At least we’re still using the bats.

He didn’t give exams in class. Instead, he gave “celebrations of learning.” You had to take them outside of class time, without notes, and answer his handful of open-ended questions. When you finished, you’d have almost ten pages and over 3,000 words written. It wasn’t uncommon to get failing grades on these exams.

He expected a lot of us.

One class period he kept asking us questions about a specific period of history. The class was unprepared to answer his questions.

“Okay. Nobody is ready. Class dismissed. Go to the library and read about this and then come back next time ready to discuss.”

He wasn’t joking, either. Stunned, we all shuffled out of class.

When you were with him, it felt like life mattered to him.

He stood for something.

And then, one time, he said the phrase that connected a lot of the dots for me:

He didn’t claim originality. He attributed the phrase to someone else, but I never actually found the original quote from that someone.

To me, he’s the one who said it. And I’ve never forgotten it.

The Balance Brigade

A “whatabout” exists around every corner of passion.

I never know precisely when salience comes into a human heart regarding a direction, but when it does, look out.

The fire that shows up in the belly of a person who has pored over a new idea, longed for a new startup, knew it was time for a career change, or was ready to tackle a new problem stands out. It’s like a brand-new engine gets dropped inside that person—and the capacity is unimaginable.

Then come the doubters.

“We’ve tried that before.”

“But what about your family? How do they feel?”

“You have a good job.”

“You don’t want to burn out.”

“I don’t see that working.”

“Slow down. Have you thought about the implications?”

Those moments are tough. I’ve been a wet blanket a few too many times for people who want to pursue an idea.

Those moments are when our passion gets tested. Sometimes we have the fortitude to push through. Other times we back off. Often, a gap exists between our passion and the opportunity to execute. Doubts (and doubters) thrive in the waiting.

I’ve had passions I’ve backed off of—youthful or otherwise—and others I’ve kept at.

But a desire for “balance” won’t get you far. The desire will just keep you—keep us—a little safer, maybe with a little more money in the bank and a handful more regrets than some other folks.

Let Imbalance Make You Uncomfortable

But if we could be a little imbalanced—if there is midnight oil to spare—we might realize there’s more in us than we thought. What might be missing is an awakening to pursue something worth fighting for, losing sleep over, and maybe even arguing about.1

• This is the young woman who decided to quit her job to pour into her kids while they’re in the home. It’s unbalanced. She left money on the table.

• This is the small business owner who worked a month straight because he knew good would come from his idea. He’s a little more tired but ends the month grateful.

• This is the friend who goes to school at night for a new degree. “I think it’s crazy,” you say. But five years later, your friend finishes and you realize all you’ve done is thought he was crazy.

• This is the high schooler (he might be related to me) who spends his free time running disc golf tournaments to try and build a community in the city. “Yeah, but you can’t make a career out of that.” (How many high schoolers are building a place to connect youth and adults around a fun hobby?)

• This is the professor who makes his students leave class because they aren’t ready to have a real discussion.

Don’t make that fire in your belly the measuring rod for someone else. I can’t carry your fire, but I can let it illuminate parts of my own life and knock me off balance in the best of ways.

My professor’s words ring true even 20 years later: balanced people have nothing to say.

So say something.

Where have you let a good idea die due to inattention, discouragement, or distraction? We all have them. What does it take to knock the rust off and get back after it? I’d love to hear about it (and potentially help you get back after it).

Most of those steps were alone with my own thoughts and prayers. I have found that the more output I have in life, the more time I need to process. On times I’m not alone with my gait, it’s because Courtney has joined me. We also took several walks with friends from church. Over the break I walked with two of our boys for a quick getaway from a family party.

During a walk after Christmas, and right after Courtney and the boys traveled to Louisiana for about ten days, I finished up a podcast I listen to semi-regularly. On it, the contributors were asked what their favorite piece of journalism was outside of their own platform.

One contributor went back to an article from the beginning of 2025, “The Anti-Social Century” by Derek Thompson of The Atlantic (paywalled, but can be found on Apple News if you have it).

This article doesn’t rant about loneliness—in fact, Thompson highlights the difference between loneliness (which many people do not feel) and solitude (which is used in the article as being “the only person in the room” even if on a device engaging with others). I started this article from a coffee shop by myself; I’m in solitude for all intents and purposes.

(The irony isn’t lost on me that I listened to this article while walking by myself.)

Thompson’s thesis:

The individual preference for solitude, scaled up across society and exercised repeatedly over time, is rewiring America’s civic and psychic identity. And the consequences are far-reaching—for our happiness, our communities, our politics, and even our understanding of reality.

I found much in the article to be true. Yet there was this unspoken part of me as I considered the people I’ve engaged with over years—men, in particular—who struggle to connect with peers. I think about that long-tenured meme (though the number can be debated, thanks to Judas):

This article reminded me of something I wrote about years ago and say to anyone who will listen: if you want friends, you have to be a friend.

Easier said than done. In fact, we often view our relationships—even our closest ones—as transactional. I’ve done it, too.

However, realizing just how much solitude impacts our culture, I thought more about how this impacts us when it comes to our friendships—men, in particular.

Friendship: A Lost Art, Especially for Men

I come across people who suffer from relational isolation. They so badly want friends but they can’t seem to cross the divide. This feeling can result from one’s crushing insecurity, self-imposed “my spouse is my best friend” jargon,1 the simple fact that some of us are quite difficult to befriend, or something that falls in between.

One aspect I find, at least anecdotally, is this: we want something from people we often have not first been willing to give.

Our cultural phrases teach us that we should know better.

• You get out what you put in.

• No pain, no gain.

• Be the change you want to see.

Whatever your phrase, I’ll say this: friendship is hard. To be a friend takes a significant amount of work.

Men, we cannot meaningfully connect to others as genuine friends without significant sacrifices. In other words, it’ll cost you.

• Time: Friendships aren’t built in solitude and don’t get cooked in a microwave. You have to invest substantial time with people—very often without much in return. Not only that—and they don’t teach you this in school—but you might have to put in significant time with people before you find one you might have a strong connection with. And the place you might have to give up time in order to be with others? Your “me” time.

• Money: I’m not talking about buying friends, which would be a Michael Scott strategy. I’m talking about being generous. Be the one who buys lunch with no paybacks. Even if you have people over, you’re providing them something from your fridge or pantry. It’s always money well-spent but it needs to be a part of how you think nonetheless. Our general rule as a family with our boys’ friends: If they’re with us, they don’t pay, because they’re part of the family at that moment.

• Pain: To let someone get close enough to hurt you is a vulnerable thing, but it comes with the territory. In fact, the ones you let get the closest to you are the ones who will hurt you the most. When you’re face to face with someone who has hurt you (or you’ve hurt), you can’t walk away from your device. You’re stuck there, and you have to deal with it.

For some, these costs are a no-brainer. For others, they’re a bridge too far. However, if you want the benefits of deep friendships, you have to pony up.

Sow Seeds of Friendship Wide

I don’t plan to stop walking anytime soon. It’s where I process, pray, and consider those people in my life who are dear to me. The solitude helps prepare me for the face time with others. But I don’t live for the solitude.

We keep our Christmas cards up the entire next year. This display is largely due to our own lack of desire to take them down. People come over and are surprised by the number. I’d say we got roughly 90 in 2025 (which isn’t that many). Still, we’ve been at it a long time, so you get a card from someone and you go, “Shoot, I guess we need to send them one, too.” There’s some formality to it I laugh over.

But how many did we send? Over 400. People don’t see that part.

Doing the math, that means for about every four cards we send, we get one back.

But the math is irrelevant because we don’t send out cards to get cards. We send out cards to make one more connection with people in our lives. Some we know well, others not as well, but each family matters.

Those 90 will be staring at us throughout much of 2026 and give me a reminder. At times, we take a card down and tell the kids a story about the family and something we appreciate about them. We might pray for them, too.

All that to say: sow seeds of friendship wide and see what harvest may come.

What do I mean? Invest broadly in people who cross your path. Take them to coffee. Invite them over. Ask them questions about where they came from and what they’re passionate about. Shoot, go a little over budget to feed them. Let yourself be interrupted by them.

Then, do it again. This time with someone else.

You may not realize how many new relationships begin to form.

• The responsible is the one doing the work.

• The accountable is the one ultimately in charge of the project.

• The consulted don’t do the work but are brought in when their voice matters.

• The informed are those who need to know what’s going on at the right time.

One word: Boring.

One question: Are we allowed to say “RACI” anymore? It has an unfortunate homonym that I think might get you fired.

One thought: The chart doesn’t even flow in a logical order. Why would the second person on the list be the one ultimately responsible?

Then again, running around saying “ARCI” isn’t really any better, is it?

ORCA Delegation Clears up the Confusion

One staff meeting, I simultaneously lamented our staff’s struggle to appropriately assign responsibility and my disdain of RACI because it won’t work. Within five minutes, maybe my most favorite staff creation came about—from word to dumb GPT-created logo.

O – Owner: The person ultimately accountable for the item being discussed. Any item in question only has one owner. We cannot make a department or team the owner. However, an owner might exist on a team of responsible parties.

R – Responsible: The doer(s). They’re hands-on, executing the work and moving the ball forward. They report to the owner. An event or ministry might have multiple areas of responsibility, but there is still one responsible person per task or deliverable.

C – Coordinated: The people who need to stay in sync on any project. They often interact with the responsible party or parties. They’re not doing the work, but their input, timing, and/or alignment matters.

A – Aware: These are the people who are kept in the loop. They’re informed, not involved in the doing or deciding, but benefit from visibility. Awareness helps them stay aligned and ready to support if needed.

Implementing ORCA

Say you have an idea or there’s a new project. The flow becomes simple.

Assign the Owner: Any project or task the team is working on needs one leader—the Owner. You should keep asking, “Who owns that?” until it’s crystal clear and one name is attached.

Determine Spans of Responsibility: The Owner helps determine the other roles needed. Owners can also have some area of responsibility, should their time allow, but the responsible parties all need to know what they’re responsible for.

Let your Rs Run Free: Not too free, but their lane should be clear enough that they know what to do. They can bring in the people they need (Cs, largely) to get it done.

Make Aware When Needed: The group who needs to be aware can change, but the people closest to the activity likely have the best idea of who needs to be where.

By using ORCA, you bring some clarity to your collaboration (and yes, whales). It helps us avoid confusion, reduce duplication, and ensure everyone knows their role and who they’re responsible to—so we can serve with excellence and move forward together.

Author’s Commentary: The value of ORCA for the team.

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When we landed on this language, we recorded a podcast on it for our church. You can listen below (the discussion happens on the back third of the podcast)

Today’s post highlights an aspect of marriage we all deal with: boundaries. I’ve adapted here to make a post. Hope you enjoy!

The Story: Falling Out of Bed

During our early marriage, we lived in a two-story rental we ended up buying from Courtney’s parents shortly into our time in Baton Rouge. Our bedroom sat on the first floor and above our bedroom was the boys’ room, with two additional bedrooms down the hall. Anyone who has lived in an apartment can tell you that the sound of feet, or balls bouncing, or children falling on the floor upstairs translates downstairs like someone tried to use another human as an axe to chop through the floor. However, such noises rarely have such a source.

One night, with Courtney’s mom in a guest room down the hall from the boys upstairs, I awake to the sound of a child being thrown through the floor. Doubting that was the case, I wanted to see what all the noise was about. I bound up the stairs to see what was the matter.

“I hope that didn’t wake anyone” is on repeat in my head. Probably eight seconds pass between noise, me waking up, sprinting up the stairs like a ninja, and entering the first door on the right.

All the children are still asleep. One on the floor who never woke up as he rolled out of the bed. I pick up the befallen son, place him back in his bed, and leave the room.

“Everything okay?”

“Shoot!” is what goes on in my head but I say, “Yeah, he fell out of bed but it’s fine,” as I see Court’s mom silhouetted in the dark hallway. I head down the stairs, not quite as quickly, and go back to bed.

The next morning begins and I head to the office and settle in for an important day of doing God’s work—emails, reading, talking to people.

While at the office, a classic mother and daughter conversation ensues of which I was unaware. The conversation didn’t take long to find me, though.

“Courtney, would it be okay if I bought a bedrail for you guys so that the boys don’t fall out of their beds?”

I get it. It feels innocuous. Shoot, it is innocuous. But Courtney and I are trying to become “Team Googer” over here. We haven’t done the best job operating like a unit, so we are going to give it a shot.

Courtney says, “Hold on, let me call Hans.”

My phone rings. This is the moment when I’m brought into the conversation.

You should know that of all things in the world I hate, phone calls exist squarely in my top five. My closest friends know if they must talk to me, they call me, but it’d better be an emergency. Otherwise, text. I’m available about 18 hours a day, but not by phone call. If someone sees my number on their screen, they answer because it is likely that I was murdered and someone found my phone, unlocked it with my dead face, and called one of my favorites to say, “There’s a dead guy here. He might know you. His last phone call was three weeks ago.” So when I see Courtney’s name, I know we have to talk.

“Is everything okay?”

“Hey, my mom wanted to buy a bedrail for the boys. Is that all right?”

“No, we don’t need a bedrail. Kids fall out of beds. It is fine. Not a concern of mine.”

“Okay.”

In my head, that’s that. But if you know South Louisiana moms, daughters, and families, that’s rarely that. We didn’t have bunk beds or anything, just normal twin beds and a floor full of carpet. All drop tests would approve small children rolling out of that bed and falling 18 to 24 inches onto the floor. We’re fine. Case closed.

Well, the case wasn’t closed. Through some word-salad of a response to her mom, Courtney ended with, “Just do what you want.”

We had come to believe that the old patterns got left in Dallas—where our marriage started out. But our time in Baton Rouge proved that old patterns don’t die; they just find new soil. Courtney’s habit of pleasing others meant she was faced with a choice: who do I let down?

For Courtney, letting the spouse down proves much easier than the mother.

After it all, I get a text. At least it is in a format I appreciate.

“Hey, I went ahead and told my mom it was fine to get them.”

“YOU PICKED THE WRONG SIDE!!!”

I 100 percent all-capsed her. That text set off ten of the most memorable minutes of our marriage. A comedy of errors.

Courtney did end up reneging on the “do what you want,” but it wasn’t without a cost.

Curious to listen to how Courtney and I processed this? Rather than our normal “Author’s Commentary” you can hear us talk through the post below:

The Lesson: You’re a Unit Even When You Forget

Have you ever “won” an argument but the final outcome was so convoluted that you aren’t sure if you actually won? This is our bedrail debacle.

No bedrail: Check. Hans wins.

Stress your relationship with your mom: Check. Courtney loses.

Stress your relationship with your mother-in-law: Check. Hans loses.

Stress the relationship with your spouse: Check. Hans and Courtney lose.

Stress fracture your son’s arm: To be determined. (We still haven’t purchased a bedrail, but some of our children often sleep on the floor like cave trolls.)

I do not expect husbands and wives to always agree but to be on the same team. Courtney does, too. You probably do, as well. It’s the “leave and cleave” part of marriage. We are a unit. When the unit decides, the decision is done. It’s the constant push and pull of marriage—and while we get better, we never conquer it.

The Epilogue: Over Ten Years Later

We recently took a couple of the boys to dinner and told them this story—which they had never heard. We won’t tell you who said what, but these were the phrases that were shared at dinner:

“If you guys had gotten a bedrail, I would’ve been so mad.”

“Really? I doubt you would’ve been mad or even remembered,” we told him.

“When I was little I remember going to sleep in my bed and waking up on the floor a lot.” (Okay, maybe it happened more than once. Mom and Dad remember once.)

“One time, when we were older and had bunk beds, Mimi [her grandmother name] always told us to be careful and not fall off the bed when we were playing. We were never going to fall off the bed. Then one time, he fell off the bed and hit his face on it and I thought, ‘Well, I guess we might fall off the bed.’”

Trying to be a good and instructive parent, Courtney asked, “Boys, what is a better way we could’ve handled that situation about the bed rail?”

“Let her buy it and then never use it,” said one son.

“Incorrect. That’s passive aggressive and it won’t work,” said Dad.

“Oh, okay.”

“I know. How about just say ‘No’ and then just still say, ‘No’ and not change your mind?” said another son. He didn’t say it matter-of-factily, but with a lot of “I definitely know a better way” vibes that I appreciated.

“Ding ding ding.”

I added, “Also, you could’ve just said ‘No’ and never called me, but Mom sometimes wants a little bit of help and we need to give it because that’s what families do and Mom is the best person in the whole wide world.”

(I added some lines in that to make myself sound better.)

Where are your biggest boundary moments? Also, am I the only one that’s crazy? Our marriage is normal, right? Reply below.

We use the Four Helpful Lists framework:

• What went right?

• What went wrong?

• What was confusing?

• What was missing?

Hearing the answers to those questions exposes a lot about our emotions. For one, we have to hear people tell us what didn’t work right—and something always didn’t work right. Additionally, you’ll likely realize that a glaring aspect of success got overlooked. In those moments, you really can feel exposed.

I remember doing one evaluation over a year ago where we realized we crashed and burned on how to appropriately support the young families in attendance. One staff member froze. He felt like all we were saying was, “This event was an absolute disaster.” That isn’t what we said. What we said was, “We really screwed this one part of the event up. How can we avoid that in the future?”

But we so often fear hearing bad news that we shift the target to feel better about ourselves.

The Evaluation is Only as Good as the Target

The key to a good evaluation is knowing precisely what you were aiming at. This change alone solves most of the issue. The only problem? We rarely start with this step: “What did we say success looked like?”

Thus, success becomes largely defined as, “Did people participate?” or, “Did I feel like it went well?”

I’ve been guilty of the same strategy. I’ve led events or entire semesters of activities where the goal was simply, “Have the activity and then see how it goes.” Then we just pat ourselves on the back when it didn’t entirely stink.

However, if we take the extra step to understand what a “win” actually is, we spend less time worried about how many people showed up or how well we feel it went. We have a clear understanding of if we did what we aimed to do.

If I want to host dinner for my neighbors, then I have one clear metric: did my neighbors come to the dinner I hosted? If I hosted dinner and a bunch of my co-workers attended, then I didn’t hit my goal. I might’ve still had a great dinner, but I didn’t actually do what I set out to do.

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Clarity Frees the Evaluation

Once we get clear about what the win is, we are free to run after it. I had this conversation with one of our staff a while back. He was re-structuring something he oversees and was excited about the idea, but he wasn’t sure how to evaluate it.

“How will you know this new idea worked?”

“Umm. I’m not sure. One new person attends.” (I don’t remember the exact number.)

“Just one? Really? You can do that without trying.”

“Okay. Ten new people attend. That makes me nervous even saying. What if I don’t hit it?”

“Then you don’t hit it and we’ll figure out why. But how will you know if someone is new?"

“I’ll find a way when they check in to confirm if this is their first time.”

“Great.”

Good news is, he hit his goal. You can say success should’ve been defined differently—and that’s fine. Once the target is defined, hold it and build off of it. Don’t change it. At least now we know what we are measuring from and can adjust in future iterations. All the other little aspects (right/wrong/confusing/missing) still get covered, but you know the main goal.

Failure Forces Curiosity

I actually love when we don’t hit our target. That area is fertile soil for self-discovery. “Why didn’t it work?” is such a great question. Whatever the reason it didn’t work, don’t flee from it, but get curious about it.

• Were we unclear to begin with?

• Did we actually define success the wrong way?

• Did we measure the wrong items to find success?

• Were our plates too full?

• Was our timing off?

• Did we not care about it as much as we thought, so we did other things instead?

I’ll tell you one of the constant themes in our initial evaluations on almost anything. We kept asking some iteration of, “Why the heck was this so hard to pull off?” or “Why did so many of us overlook what seemed so simple?” A significant reason for this problem: we didn’t actually know who was in charge of success.

All hands on deck is great, unless you’re trying to get a specific thing accomplished, then it is REALLY nice to know who is supposed to accomplish any one thing at any given time. We’ve instilled a couple of strategies to address this problem, which I’ll write about later—they’re a couple of my favorite issues.

The key here, as my friend talks about at his workplace, is you can’t be punitive. Cultures where failure results in any sort of organizational demerit means you’ll work too hard to play it safe. If you want a workplace where failure is okay, you can’t ding people for messing up or missing their target. You need to encourage it, even celebrate it, so that continued learning becomes woven into everything you do.

So try this: before your next meeting, take one minute beforehand and define success for it. Then, tell everyone what you’re going for. Finally, when it is over, ask them if you hit it.

Whether you knocked it out of the park or failed miserably, be glad. Why? Because you’re taking your own growth seriously and setting a new measure of success for you and those around you—ongoing development to better serve others.

Author’s Commentary: Here some of the story behind the post as we go through it together.

In 2012 we began sending out Christmas letters. Our tone has to be self-deprecating over braggadocious. We’re sorry if you didn’t get one, but here’s the letter with our kids anonymized—for them, for us, and for what might get shared at their wedding.

If you’d like to hear Courtney and me talk through it, listen here:

Spring Break Trip 2025. One kid, newly permitted to drive, took the wheel for a winding ten-mile stretch through Smoky Mountain roads. You’ve never heard “Too far right!” so many times. Not the highlight of Hans’ parenting career, but we are alive and well and here to tell the tale.

What would you do if your kid’s friends offered to pay him $15 to write (and then cross out) a juvenile phrase on a math test? We don’t need a hypothetical. One of ours accepted the deal. When we found out, Hans had him confess to the teacher; detention followed (after the Dean of Students asked Courtney, “How much did he make?”). Another student even felt so bad he tossed in an extra $5. It didn’t matter—we had him give it away. “I wish you’d let me give it away myself; I already felt bad,” he said afterward.

The boys made money in other ways, too. Hans made a deal with one: $50 for faithfully wearing orthodontic bands. Another ran disc golf tournaments and took a cut of the winnings (the first six tournaments netted exactly zero dollars). All three fed a neighbor’s pets for a week. One won over $900 on an ace pot playing disc golf, leaving us to wonder if gambling is in his future. Two of them also won we-don’t-know-how-many gift cards in disc golf tournaments. This new world gave Hans a great opportunity to teach about taxes, 1099s, Social Security numbers, giving, and accounting. The boys hate making money now.

Sleeping arrangements got creative. We have two rooms the three kids alternate through. One kid, craving solitude, gave his brother $11 worth of gift cards to go bunk with his other brother for five nights. The kid who had no say in the matter was unimpressed and later posted a “Sorry, this room is closed” sign to stave off late entrants and get more alone time.

One night in particular, we got almost no sleep—but only because we took a very early flight to LAX so Hans could do a wedding. It was our first plane ride as a family, and that 5 a.m. departure bought us a full day to meander down the Pacific Coast Highway. What did we do? Stopped at a candy store, hit Play It Again Sports to buy discs, and used those discs to play with strangers at the busiest disc golf course in America while Hans and Courtney took one kid to a deeply disappointing Target. At the wedding reception, one kid sampled freely: “one Coke, one Cherry Coke, one Shirley Temple, at least one lemon Sprite, and I think there were a couple more.” He loves an open bar.

Like any growing family, food loomed large. After many hours of YouTube chefs, one of the boys decided to make homemade cinnamon rolls. Attempt one involved guessing how dough is made. Then he learned what yeast is. The next two times, the pans overflowed with delicious cinnamon rolls. He now cooks his own steaks, his own toast (on a skillet), his own everything. Another kid, who doesn’t cook, swears by vanilla bean Frappuccinos and birthday cake cake pops that he gets while the other two play disc golf. A third hits Panda Express every chance he gets—and sometimes eats so much he pukes. We’re working on self-control.

Hans and Courtney eat less because they’re getting older and slower. Hans has been experimenting with food schedules to get his A1c down. Ironic, since Courtney is the diabetic—but we’ll let Hans have his weird food world.

Hans also started writing a book about their first 20 years of marriage—basically an extended Christmas letter on how not to be. The draft is over halfway done. Courtney, who edited Hans’s cousin’s billion-page book this year, now turns to this memoir, working title You Talk Too Much. This is what Courtney does with the free time afforded her by stepping down from her role at the boys’ school (while Hans works more, coaching leaders and pastoring and writing).

Honestly, we’d want 2025 to go no other way. God is good and we love what he’s working out in our home, even though we have to take care of these nuts.

Everywhere you go, you’ll be living out cultural truths about power distance and authority.

The story of the incarnation breaks every notion of power distance.

Power distance can be seen as the acceptability of people being treated differently because of their authority. Cultures with higher power distance, like China, recognize their authorities as different from them and would not openly question decisions made by their superiors. Lower power distance countries, like the United States, expect those in authority to be highly accessible and open to being challenged.

And you, my friend, likely fall right within the low power distance structures that exist in our culture. You cannot escape it. Still, the incarnation shatters every category we’ve built around power and authority. Let’s consider two sides of the birth of Jesus.

Christ’s Flattened Power Distance

Children are inherently vulnerable, needy, and exhausting—they can do nothing for themselves. Yet this is how Christ entered the world. This form was God’s choice.

And Joseph also went up from Galilee, from the town of Nazareth, to Judea, to the city of David, which is called Bethlehem, because he was of the house and lineage of David, to be registered with Mary, his betrothed, who was with child. And while they were there, the time came for her to give birth. And she gave birth to her firstborn son and wrapped him in swaddling cloths and laid him in a manger, because there was no place for them in the inn. (Luke 2:4-7, ESV)

These few verses highlight Christ’s entrance into the world. An outsider’s outsider. A poor man’s poor man. A vulnerable child born to a working-class family, placed in a feeding trough because the usual spaces were unavailable.

How can we maintain power distance when Jesus himself removed it? How can we lord ourselves over people and flex our positions of power when the Son of God came in the lowliest place?

But Christ’s birth demonstrated he was no normal baby.

Christ’s Exalted Power Distance

Jesus received the most intense and memorable birth announcement of birth announcements. Courtney and I sent a card out to about 100 friends and family when our first child was born. The card had a printing error and made his nostril look fully blacked out so we had to get it remade.

Jesus got a chorus of angels.

And in the same region there were shepherds out in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And an angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were filled with great fear. And the angel said to them, “Fear not, for behold, I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord. And this will be a sign for you: you will find a baby wrapped in swaddling cloths and lying in a manger.” And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God and saying,

“Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace among those with whom he is pleased!” (Luke 2:8-14, ESV)

This was no ordinary baby, and yet the announcement, as grandiose as it was, also came oddly—to a small group of shepherds at night. Both exaltation and humility in one announcement.

So, while we see the humility of Jesus, we also recognize the difference of Jesus.

Access, Reverence, and You

What we learn in all of this is that Jesus perfectly existed as openly accessible and fully different. He transcended the gap of heaven to come near. He dwelt among us. Yet he was fully different than us in that he was perfect. During his ministry he was accessible enough for children to run up to him and holy enough that powerful leaders bowed down to him.

Jesus shows us that his way is the best way.

These truths—Christ’s humility and exaltation—are used by Paul, one of Jesus’ enemies turned friends, to explain to a church why they need to care about each other. They aren’t left in the ethereal realm of thought experiments; they are real.

So if there is any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from love, any participation in the Spirit, any affection and sympathy, complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind. Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus . . . . (Philippians 2:1-5, ESV)

The story of Jesus challenges our assumptions about power.

The incarnation tells us that true authority doesn’t require distance. We learn that holiness and accessibility are not mutually exclusive. We learn that the God of the universe chose vulnerability as his entry point into our world yet remained fully God while becoming fully man. And we see that this humility becomes the model for us to serve those around us.

So I ask you, readers, to consider this question: How does the incarnation change the way you invest in others this week?

Jesus gives us a better way—humility and holiness, wrapped in swaddling clothes.

Merry Christmas.

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Author’s Commentary: For a more casual re-telling of the post, see below.

Often, this freedom gave me opportunities to grow. Sometimes, this freedom could be manipulated. Other times, a little more restriction or guidance would have been helpful.

However, one specific Christmas, their long leash was long enough to let me get tangled within it. That lesson, which was never spoken, only experienced, changed my own parenting and gave me a respect for my parents that continues to this day. (Can you still respect you mom after she’s passed away? I think so.)

Middle school into high school was an interesting transition for our family. Allow me to set the table while we get to that specific Christmas. You need to know my parents and their vibes.

For one, sometime in eighth grade we illegally went to school. That is, we moved about 45 minutes away from my school district but didn’t change our address. Every morning, dad drove east to his job and mom drove my brother and me west to our illegal school. My sister, who was finishing high school, was living with friends so she could finish without moving.

Well, we finally got caught. An administrator approached mom at her work and she immediately had to get us from school. Kicked out. Gone. No more education. My brother and I were left without a school.

Mom, ever the planner, found an apartment back in our school district, rented it, and we were there within a day or two. I remember when an administrator called me into the office at that same school and handed me a “return to sender” envelope with our illegal address on it.

“Can you explain this?”

“Yep. That was our address but we don’t live there anymore. We just moved into an apartment a couple miles away.”

“Umm. Ok.”

Then I went back to class. Case closed.

Over the next year or two we built a house closer to the school and moved in there. The Christmas tree sat in a dining room at the bottom of a nice, curved staircase. You could always see the tree as you descended the stairs.

A Necklace and Cologne

This Christmas, in particular, I was probably a sophomore or junior—gosh, I hope I wasn’t a senior. I wanted a cross necklace and some cologne. Why? High school in the late 90s.

However, I didn’t want just any cross necklace or cologne. I wanted the cross necklace that was made from two nails that the Christian dudes wore. Those who know, know. Coolness was that necklace.

For the cologne, I don’t know what I wanted but it had to be something trendy. Not the Calvin Klein unisex ones (CK One, CK Be) because I’d hate my life half-smelling like a girl. Cool Water was one I’d gotten before, maybe that. Joop would be okay. Tommy Hilfiger would be the coolest. A few years prior I got the quarter-ounce Tommy cologne and felt like a boss. (Apparently, someone sells this “vintage” cologne for a buck per hundredth of an ounce.)

I was ready to be amazed and then amaze.

“Can I Have It?”

The only problem? The cross necklace I got was more of a larger pewter cross on a beaded ball chain. It would’ve hung down to my solar plexus. The cologne was Drakkar Noir. You can buy that cologne at Walmart. I didn’t want Walmart cologne!

(Please know that even as I type these words, I still feel the embarrassment and shame of my childish, ungrateful, highly selfish behavior. )

I let my parents know I wanted nothing to do with those gifts. I probably even said, “I don’t want them.” My parents were well within their rights to murder me, banish me, or shame me in front of the family. I deserved it.

Instead, they did something worse. They did not correct me; they just took the gifts themselves.

My mom looked at that necklace and said, “Well would it be okay if I wore it?”

“Sure.”

My dad, seeing my dislike for Walmart cologne asked, “Can I use it?”

“Of course.”

In half a second they did something far worse than confront me; they let my childish behavior simply exist. They didn’t correct it. They didn’t need to. They knew I was being a fool and there was no reason to force me to have to defend it; it was already indefensible.

Christmas went on without any issues. I was not in the dog house. I was not grounded. We continued to see family, have fun, and move forward.

Sometimes Silence Teaches Better Lessons

My parents’ longer leash meant that, at times, I received the freedom to roam around in my childish emotions. Correction, while important, isn’t always needed—especially as you age.

I am often quick with my own children to try and tell them what they did wrong and what the better behavior would look like. You know what? They don’t always need that. We have two high schoolers and one fast approaching it. Now is the time to roam.

My parents taught me that sometimes silence teaches better lessons.

I hate that lesson because of how true it is.

For years upon years my mom wore that necklace. I’d see it when she got home from work, I saw it when she dressed up for Christmas, I’d see it when she dressed casually after a long day. There it was: a constant reminder that ingratitude has long-lasting repercussions. And, as odd as it feels, grace existed for me in my parents’ kindness simply to take the gifts themselves and let me watch Christmas unfold.

Sometimes we’d all be better saying less.

As always, I’d love to hear how these posts connect with you. Where have you stepped in too quickly? Where have you been given enough freedom to fail in big ways? Reply to let me know.

Author’s Commentary: If you’d like to hear the story behind the story, see below.

Let me get up at 11am instead of 5:30am. French fries over broccoli 100 times out of 100. If I had to choose between saving for retirement or exotic travel with my family, I’d always pick traveling with my family. Never met a book I wanted to finish or an inconvenience I wanted to deal with.

Enter: habits.

Everyone talks about habits. Mine aren’t atomic, though, they’re anchoring.

I haven’t looked this up, but I assume I’m the billionth or so person to coin the phrase “anchor habits.” I’d view anchor habits as the foundational, non-negotiable practices that stabilize our lives regardless of season, circumstance, or resistance.

Anchor habits keep you steady—they’re underneath the surface and help you weather whatever may come your way.

I’ve modified my habits over the past six years, and will continue to, but as 2025 winds down, here are the habits that have anchored me throughout the year, the ones that I’ve added, and the ways I’m still needing to grow.

Year-Round Habits

These are the habits that have stayed with me five to seven days a week, every week, all year, with limited exceptions. They often take little bits of time throughout the day.

Renewal Habits

More than just a morning reading and prayer, I’ve established a few touch points to nurture my spiritual life. I use our church’s reading plan to keep up with daily reading (Monday through Saturday). I’m with my church family on Sunday. I usually read along while listening on the Dwell App (it is usually 10-15 minutes).

For prayer, I have four times I pray, of varying lengths of time. None are long. (1) in the morning after I read, (2) briefly, at lunch (along with reading a Psalm and Proverb), (3) in the afternoon (usually sometime between 2 and 4pm), and (4) before bed (I bought a kneeler for this one).

Fitness Habits

I am not a fitness geek. My change this year is I walk way more.

I started in Q1 with 7,000 steps a day, and then went up 1,000 steps a day each quarter. I’m currently at 10,000 steps a day. At the time of this writing, I do not think I’ve missed a single day. A time or two I forgot my watch, so my steps didn’t “count,” but I’m confident I’ve walked more this year than most years of my life.

I also shoot for 150 minutes of weekly activity of any kind. Doesn’t matter the kind. Gym session. Walk. Run. Bike ride. Hike. Mowing in the sun. I go by the watch and it has to be set as an activity.

Schedule Habits

During the school year? Alarm goes off at 5:30AM. Sometimes I enjoy going back to sleep but we’re up and moving at that time just about every school day. This habit does not carry into the weekends or summers or holidays. I’m not crazy. I like my breaks, but that consistent rhythm has helped. And the breaks are good, too.

I also do a daily review (each night) and weekly review (on Sundays). To manage those reviews and tasks I use Todoist and a calendar. Todoist has become so ingrained into my daily life that it might be the most significant addition to how I stay on task in a given day. We pay for the entire staff to use it, basically because it helps me and I figured maybe it could help us.

Mid-Year Additions

As a consummate tinkerer, I still found areas lacking. That bugged me. I had my baseline and felt as if I had neglected a couple of areas, so I found some small tweaks in the schedule to push a little more.

Writing Habits

I’ve thought and prayed about writing more for a year now. I just hadn’t made the time. Both the memoir and this Substack started within the last four months of the year. I spend a minimum of 20 minutes a day on the book and I work on articles in one block of time—Sunday afternoons or evenings most often. Writing has started to develop a muscle I did not know I had—it’s been a lot of fun.

Relational Habits, Part 1

I don’t engage Courtney enough—mainly in prayer. We aren’t big date-night folks. We just get together when we can. Prayer, though, was definitely lacking. I had done much better in another season of marriage praying with her (like 2011), and needed that back. So I started praying with her at least once every day. Never long—because the goal isn’t the length, the goal is the act itself .

I also invite her on a lot of the walks I go on. She never has to join, but when she does, we get another 30-45 minutes of time together. That’s also better than the gym, which she hates.

Pressure Points

I’m still finding cracks in the process that I haven’t fully adjusted yet but hope I am able to. Some areas of weaknesses that show I have plenty more mountain to climb are:

Calendar-Keeping

I keep four calendars because that’s life right now. I struggle to know exactly how much time to allocate to certain tasks. Thus, I know that 2026 will likely contain more schedule maintenance to be sure I prioritize the right aspects of my life. I’m nervous about this, honestly, because the discipline demand for it seems daunting. However, if it helps others, I’m game.

Relational Habits, Part 2

Our boys are getting older. We have two-and-a-half more years until the boys likely start moving out of the house and our lives are forever changed. I know that I need to adjust the schedule (see “calendar-keeping” above) to make more time for them and for us. I’ve taught them spades; now it is time to beat them at spades.

How About You?

Your turn, readers. What habits have helped to form you this year? Where do you know you’re weak and need adjustment? If you could embed one new anchor habit into your life right now, what would it be?

Maybe you feel stuck in a perpetual cycle of unrealized potential or frustrated feelings of failure. If that’s you, reach out. I’d be glad to see if there’s a way I can help you or those on your team.

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